Contingencies

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I’m feeling uncomfortable today, there are many reasons for that. First off, this place is going up for sale, and just like I knew would happen, there is construction banging around here night and day now. I kind of hoped that I would be out of here by now, but here we are. I haven’t gone out to smoke, I don’t want to be standing out there with a whole bunch of dudes right now.

It is a Tuesday. I have so much to do, but as I’m having a hard time getting into it, I figured that I should shake my brain out here. I have a bunch of things to say, but no real time to say them.

It’s so weird how existential troubles fade away as soon as actual tangible troubles filter in. And how people who could help with actual troubles instead just try to step all the way out of the way, to give you space… and avoid doing any work.

I clicked away because I’m so scared that I won’t be able to depend (I originally put in defend) on the people that I need to, I had to see if there was some way that I could discreetly do it without them.

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